Student

I've been thinking a lot lately about poker, and were I am at in this crazy world of it. Can I be a successful cash player? Can I win another big mtt? It seems that since I won the 13k I want to beat that....instead of winning smaller amounts, like 1k or 2k here and there in smaller mtts. This is really not good for me or my BR, so I've decided to still play but study more in comparison to playing poker. More like 30% poker and 70% studying. I am really thinking about joining stox poker and I want to just get as much as I can from that. I also have been just reading and reading on CardsChat. I have went from a mega spammer to a silent studier the last two months, if anyone has noticed. I think this is a time in my life of poker where I am really seeing the reality of discipline and how important it is in order to move up in limits and have a good win rate.
Another thing is after I study a good amount and decide to put more time into playing poker, I might just start at 25nl with 20 BIs and go from there. I will find all my leaks and adjust accordingly also, hopefully through help of others.
Another thing I really am trying to learn, is the HUD software. Before I would never use a HUD and play off basic reads, memory, and knowledge of the other players. Therefor I subconsciously block the HUD when I am in a hand and almost forget about it until the hand is over. I really need to slowdown and see what I've got in front of me.
Another thing I really am looking forward to is training myself. At the lower limits straight forward play is needed and I think sometimes I get a bit fancy and lose my composure. It's time to straighten up and just grind the simple play out until I move up in limits!

Motivation Works!

Well right after all this talk about starting at 10nl and being pumped and motivated has really payed off. I went from 25$ and 2 tables to 6 tabling with almost all at max buy-ins. I was really excited that my HUD was better working now, but now that I have actually used it multi-tabling i am super stoked to the max!
So I'll just leave you with a nice graph and good start!

Lost!?(not the televeision show geez)

Well as you know I had and still have a lot going on in my life right now. With school starting it is getting even worse. Right now I think I have been running more badly in poker than ever before. I also, somehow, lost my patience for sngs and mtts. The thing is I remember losing patience before, but gaining it back after a break and some tweaking/re-evaluating, but I just can't find it.
Not only have I lost my patience, but luck which plays a fairly large factor in mtts aka variance, has not been on my side, AT ALL! So I've completely lost my confidence in poker BUT....
For the last month or so I've been reading on CC more than I have been posting(you can pick your jaw up off the floor now), and I've been really reading the infamous monthly threads that have become extremely popular. Anyways I once again have been inspired to possibly play cash games. I dipped my toe in at 10nl and did well as a winning player. I then played a little 25nl in which I was a losing player but my sample size was not even close enough to measure. So since the main reason I switched to cash games back then was because I am going to be so busy is the same reason I am considering it again. I get so pumped reading about everyone's cash sessions.
Another good thing that has me motivated is that my HUD is now working and looks a lot better than before, I am so ready to kill cash games!

So here are my NEW goals for this year:

1. Start back at 10nl
2. Work my way to 25-50nl and learn as much as possible
3. Get sweated as much as possible
4. study
5. BE PATIENT!
6. No spewing
7. have a good time
8. school first though
9. save up my fpp's

Well I really need to have more self discipline here, and It's going to be hard for me but I know I can do it. MY big thing is motivation, and as long as I am I will do great!